In exactly one month, my family and I will pack up and move. We will be going to town that we have visited twice. We will be living in an apartment that we have seen once, surrounded by people we have never met.
My oldest son will start year-round school in July with kids that he does not know. I have no idea where my youngest son will be, just that more than likely he won’t be staying at home with mommy all day anymore.
In less than one month, I will no longer be getting paid or have insurance. Standing here looking one month down the road, neither my wife or I have a job lined up and only a few prospects. We will be incurring new costs, while keeping too many of the old ones.
Why exactly are we doing this? Why am I asking my family to move away from their family and friends? I don’t know and God told me. It’s kind of like “I do believe; help my unbelief.”
What will I do if we can’t find jobs? Don’t know. What will I do if my classes are too much? Don’t know. What will I do if I have to work full-time and go to school? Don’t know. What will I do once I finally graduate with an M.Div in Apologetics? Don’t know.
At this point, you are probably asking, “Well what do you know?” My answer, “Not much.” I just know that this is the way God is leading us.
I know people who have done more. I know people who have done less. None of that matters. Obedience matters. We are just being obedient to the direction we feel God calling us.
If nothing else, I hope the people around us are challenged and encouraged to obey God in everything in their lives even if it doesn’t make sense. Some are facing bigger decisions and more daunting tasks than I am. Some are facing smaller obstacles that may seem trivial to others.
You don’t control the size of your Goliath. You only control whether you step out and fling the rock. Don’t worry about your problems, focus on your obedience. God honors obedience.