Being a father has to be the most humbling thing ever. Every day I see how frail and weak I am. Every day I see how much further I need to go to be more like Christ for my family.
For Wesley’s baptism, we got him a new Bible – one that was actually a complete Bible, not just stories. He has started to read a few verses every night before he goes to bed.
Wesley: I’m going to read my Bible every night. Even when I get bigger I’m gonna do it every night. Even when I have kids, I’m gonna read it to them, too.
Me: That’s great baby. You do that. It would be a great thing to do.
I was glad to hear him say that. But I didn’t think too much more of it until I relayed the story to my wife the next night before bedtime. She said, “Did you ask him why he wants to read his Bible?” So I go into his room to ask him.
Me: Wesley, why do you want to read your Bible every night?
Wesley: Because I love it.
Me: [smiling] That’s a really good reason.
Wesley: And because you do it. I want to do it like you do.
Me: [tears coming up, having to leave the room]
It’s so humbling to hear your son say something like that. While it’s encouraging, I can’t help but think back to the time a few years ago when I got frustrated at something and slammed a book down. Not a minute later, Wesley got mad at something and threw it down – just like I had done.
I hope I can become more like Jesus so that I’m passing more of Him down to my sons and less of me. I can’t help but thinking of a line from a TobyMac song, “I gave to you a son so you could understand the Father’s love for you.” Being a father has given me new eyes to see my relationship with my Heavenly Father. It constantly reminds me how far I’ve got to go, but it constantly encourages me to keep going. Thank God for little boys.